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I want that care-free, beautifully innocent child-like simplicity back. Sadly, that's the one thing in life we can never ever relive, and we won't appreciate it until it's long gone and we look back and weep for the loss.
So when I am faced with a situation of "should I do this thing that might be amazing", more often than not I choose not to. And I just realized - 30 minutes ago by now - that I do it because I'm scared of that adrenaline rush. I'm not used to feeling that kind of wild happiness, that feeling of life flowing through me. I portion off my life so that I'm never faced with too many challenges at once, too much emotion or feeling. And now that I've recognized that, I'm even more scared of missing out of life due to subconscious fears of "feeling too much".
"Made in Afrika"... That has so many meanings in my life. It brings tears to my eyes as I write this. It makes me long for something I wonder if I will ever have. It's a place and life I long to know.